Where Do I Start?

Sometimes I experience intense moments of motivation and clarity. Unfortunately, these moments are often fueled by Mr. Jack Daniels. And so it was, the night I launched this blog, and even more so when I posted on Facebook that I had a blog. WTF was I thinking?! Oh yeah, I was feeling confident and reminded myself that I had been thinking about starting a blog for quite some time (years actually). And after reading my cousin Dani's adventures on http://wheredidyougetthatcheerio.blogspot.com/, I figured what the heck. I could do this and Jack helped nudge me along. Well, I put the breaks on that puppy the next morning. A voice in my unaddled brain kept asking, WTF were you thinking?! And did you really post that this site was about TMI in your life? And I did. Clear as day on my FB profile page. The name of the blog, a link to the blog and comments from friends claiming they look forward to reading the blog.

Oh Boy.

I froze up for a couple days. I've never really been afraid to give too much information about what I thought about. That is probably one of my greatest strengths and weaknesses– My ability to let words spew forth from my mouth (oftentimes, before my brain had a chance to register what I was saying) to form the very opinionated Donna-ness (or -dom or -ism) I felt needed to exist in this world. But somehow things have changed. Ever so slightly, I hope, but a changing I have been going through. Now, I am anxious, almost fearful of what TMI about my life is, and do I really begin to share all of this? A lot of what I've been going through recently is deeply personal. Oh who am I kidding, I suppose it's entirely personal (deeply or otherwise), as it relates to me mentally, emotionally and physically. So, I've been debating. Do I follow through on this blog thing or bail? Do I edit myself substantially, or just let it out? Because it's a frightening notion for me to be perfectly honest about my thoughts and my experiences at this time in my life. Although, I think I'm more afraid of the significance of not sharing, because that would mean that a part of me which has changed, can't change back. And I do not want that.

I definitely do not want that.

So, I suppose I'm a blogger.  I'll be putting it out there bit by bit for your greedy eyes to consume. And eventually you all will know what my changing changes are, along with my unchanged unchanges. With pictures. Because this site looks nekkid ass nekkid. We'll see if I can't change that too.

PS- Happy Birthday Mom <3